Funeral Poem

"Life's tears"

Heaven over me in a sorrow doesn't blind,
only darkness left and rules on the earth.
I'm praying for a small sunshine, but it doesn't come to me -
it lights others' faces.

I'm only in a sorrow, in a pain which doesn't let me bring out myself
I'm like a mole - living underground,
don't see a light of life.
I can only cry, 'cos my life lets me do only that

I can't see happy people, 'cos they are able to kill me.
Walking the street, I see love laying on the road
so close, but if I only try to catch it, flies so far away
where make others people happy.

I don't have any reasons to live
Love? Love lives near to me,
but it laughes, when it sees me
Love cheated me, but why?

I've gone alone, since I found love.
I've tried to fight pain hurted me, but
there's left many many reasons to die, to let death shade me.
If I close my eyes, I won't be albe to see life.

Nothing but the hurting feelings,
all my thoughts destroyed me...
Within me I'm alone, I'm in a sorrow
I'm only praying now, crying and yelling for...

I just want to see my love that doesn't hurt me
only that...
I hear my funeral song, see the dark gate open.
Maybe above the heaven?